- I don't like posting many pictures of myself online (I edit my husband's Facebook uploads),
- I don't want the photos to haunt me years from now, and
- I look horrible.
My Victoria's Secret red corduroys, which I had altered when I first bought them because the waist was too large, seemed a bit tight the last time I wore them. Bit tight? Well when I lay down to relax after eating, one of the buttons snapped right off. I couldn't believe it. Stunned, I didn't move because I was too afraid that the other button would pop, too. Thank god I was at home. I haven't worn them since that day. Last week, my husband complimented me on my pinstriped dress slacks. Now, I have worn these pants around him before, and I know he likes them, but he usually doesn't say anything. On this occasion he said, "Like those pants, honey. Nice and tight." I didn't tell him that I wanted to burst into tears because they are not supposed to be that snug. I can't wear tight pants when I tutor small children. Again, thank god I was at home.
Now some people look at me and think that I am small. According to a 2002 National Health and Nutrition Examination Survey, the average American woman stands 5'4" and weighs 164 pounds. I am currently 5'2.5" tall and weigh 118 pounds giving me a body mass index (BMI) of 21.3, which is within normal range. After my thyroid was removed in 1996, my weight ballooned to 142 pounds. As I mentioned in My Haphazard Health History post, the Synthroid that I must take every day affects my weight so I do have to see my doctor soon to have my thyroid checked. However, "small" does not equal fit. I may look fine in clothes, but I am not in shape or comfortable with the way I look right now. I think my too-honest-for-his-own-good husband said it best, "You are tiny. You just have a few pounds to lose. Things (e.g., ass, abs) will get tighter." I swear there was a gleam in his eye when he said that last sentence. I wonder if he realizes when "things get tighter" that my pants will get looser. Hmm ...
Anyway, here are my current stats and my EMAO goals:
The waist, hips, and thigh measurements are what my sizes were 18 months ago. I remember because that is when I bought the P90X workout program
, and you have to write down your "Before" body measurements in the book. Yep—that's right—I am trying to get back to the way I was ... before Advair
, before pneumonia, before 2009 was one of the most wasted years of my life. I weighed 112 pounds at my wedding so I think that goal is achievable even though losing that "last ten pounds" can sometimes be the toughest part of any workout regimen. I am not sure about the body fat percentage, but 21 seems like a reasonable (and lucky) number.
The numbers aside, at the end of this journey I just want to fit comfortably into all of my pants again. No more buttons popping off for me! AWW – XoXo
P.S. It is a good thing that my husband doesn't read this blog. ;-)
I skipped my workout to see 
Workout Results:
Unfortunately, Advair has some unpleasant side effects. It caused me to gain weight, mainly in my mid-section. Although weight gain is not listed as a common side effect of Advair, constipation and hypothyroidism are "less common" side effects and both can cause you to put on the pounds. I did some research, and despite Advair's official report, many people complain about weight gain. One man gained 30 pounds in 30 days while taking a high dosage of Advair. Doesn't surprise me one bit. 
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